So… on occasion things come up in my life, and it helps me get my head clear when I put my emotions to text. I have recently had some pretty crazy dating experiences. The last couple of guys have been way more into me than I was into them. I’m not trying to brag AT ALL, but people tend to fall in love with me hard and fast and I find that incredibly unattractive. I am not sure what my deal is, because the guys I am talking about were both amazing and I could see myself having a long and happy relationship with either one. I seem to pull myself away just as quickly as I am drawn to someone. This is not to say that I don’t like a guy’s attention – I just don’t like it when someone thinks I can do no wrong and nearly worships me. I am human just like everyone else and I like to be treated as such and called out when I’m an idiot, or if I do/say something wrong, tell me. Don’t just say awww, it’s okay, everything you do is perfect. No it’s not! I think I am a nice – maybe even a sweet guy, but definitely not to be confused with being innocent or perfect by any standards. I had this same problem when I dated girls (before I realized I liked dick LOL). I had one girlfriend turn suicidal because I broke up with her, (she didn’t do it of course) but I don’t get it! I just want to find someone who likes me for me, who I can relate to somewhat but not too much, and who is not afraid to tell me when I’ve screwed up. Relationships are suppose to be give and take, not give-give or take-take. If I didn’t like sex so much I would probably give up on the whole dating thing all together LOL. This brings me to my second issue. After having such a long and intense realtionship these last few years – have I allowed myself enough time before searching for love again? Can I love again? Am I putting myself out there to much? Or maybe, did I make a mistake leaving him? Ahhhhh! I just wanna go to some mountain top and scream until I feel better. It’s not that I feel bad, I’m just frustrated. I kinda feel like I’m on fire Anyway, enough of me venting, I’m going to eat. Talk to you all later. Hope I wasn’t to much of a downer, lol. Btw, SITE UPDATES – Click the ‘Weekly Updates’ in the top right hand corner of the members area to see two new galleries just added, including the rest of the set below called ‘Tied Up’.
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ON FIRE
